I have no idea when I started to find dolls creepy. It’s not like with clowns, where I’ve been afraid of them as long as I can remember. My parents used to have these porcelain dolls that I was obsessed with. I thought they were the most beautiful things I’d ever seen. I was fascinated, likely in part because they were so fragile that I wasn’t supposed to play with them.
At some point between then and now, I started to get creeped out by dolls and their weird, unblinking eyes. Maybe it’s something I saw in a movie and have since forgotten?
Last year, I had this vision in my mind to do a creepy, broken doll for a Halloween costume. I ended up cutting it because I had too many ideas and not enough days, but I was sure that if I did it again this year, Creepy Doll would be near the top of my list.
I had big ideas for how I wanted the makeup to look: a doll who’d lost her eyes and had large cracks down her face. I didn’t want anything that looked like it had once been cute or sweet; I wanted to make myself up as one of those old dolls that you see and think, “What psychopath made this thing?”
The makeup ended up being really frustrating. I wanted to be able to hide my eyebrows, but despite trying a few tutorials (and going through nearly an entire gluestick), my eyebrows stubbornly insisted on showing through. (In hindsight, I don’t think I had quite the right tools.) The cracks and chips that I thought would be so easy to draw, just weren’t matching up with the image I had in my head. Sure, the photos I ended up with were still unsettling, but I’m a bit disappointed
So why bother posting the photos? Well, I thought about writing something about trying to overcome my perfectionism or embracing that I’m just an amateur having fun… but really, the honest answer is: I didn’t have any other costumes and I’m kind of down to the wire for getting these posts out! 🤷 😂
…But hey, now I have a legit reason to hate dolls.